Hello everyone, long long time no write! I am happy with the choice I made to take time off from writing because there was a little while where I was overwhelming myself, but I have to admit I missed it a lot. I am now writing from somewhere new, different, and honestly a little scary: my college dorm room. For much of the past year, I was very skeptical that this day would ever come. It was honestly not until I was cramming my last duffle bags into the trunk of the car this morning that it really hit me that I would be going for real.
The past week has been a lot of going through the motions of checking off tasks, from Ikea and Target runs to having important conversations with my family. I also ceremoniously had many of my "lasts" at home: last cafe del soul trip, last workday, last walk with the dog, and last run on the bike path. Even though I knew I would be home in a couple of months, everything felt very final. Now that I am here at USC, everything instead is the opposite of final, each thing I do feels initial: first time in the apartment, the first conversation with my roommate, first target run, and first trek across campus to the journalism building.
I said goodbye to my parents about an hour ago and because all of my apartment-mates are staying in hotels tonight I am here alone, which is a little weird but trying to look on the bright side and think about how this will probably be one of the few nights that my apartment of six girls is completely empty. Most people have yet to move in but there is some light activity around, I think I am going to just stay in tonight and try to charge up my social and physical battery for tomorrow, moving in is exhausting after all.
Like with most new beginnings, things are feeling very bittersweet. I am over the moon that I am finally here and that there is so much is ahead of me, but I also don't know if I was ever going to be fully ready to say goodbye to home. I am so grateful to be here at last.
xoxoxo
Claire
hatcherfogarty@gmail.com
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